Tag Archives: change

i got a dog

I hear him tell me that he’s happy for me. That I’m doing the right thing, going where I belong. I hear her order me a celebratory drink, toasting my new adventure. One far different from the one I have … Continue reading

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at the end of the night

A flurry of phone calls, a dozen emails back and forth, a few trips up the road, and one surprisingly smooth meeting and I am on the road again. The memory of what feels like a thousand conversations presses against … Continue reading

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i hold it together

I hold it together. Or I try. In the months since I last wrote, I hold it together among the changes. The chaos of choices and regrets and joys and challenges ahead.  I hold it together when I take the … Continue reading

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not goodbye but see you soon

I think we both hate goodbyes. I do. As I leave, you say, “See you soon, dude.” I laugh because you always call me that. And we both know that once I walk out the door tonight, there’s a good … Continue reading

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empty suitcases

I’ve been staring at the pile of issued gear in my room since last month. At the pile of empty suitcases waiting to be packed up with all the things I will need for this training. The one that finally … Continue reading

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run

Feet slap against pavement in rapid succession. Breath comes in short gusts. Cold air stings lungs that draw heavily for more. For a long time now, I have been running. It started when I was young and I hated it. … Continue reading

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turn off the lights

I always left a light on for him when I knew he was coming after dark. And I didn’t turn them off until his taillights turned away from the driveway. I never wanted to cut them off until he was … Continue reading

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